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Post by starryeyes on Oct 13, 2005 15:54:41 GMT -5
This Isn't realy a poem.. it's just ...sorta...writing.
On the outside I have everything,
Yet I don't feel it inside,
My eyes shall be forever red,
for all the tears I've cried.
My whole life seems perfect,
And in a way it is,
Then, Why Do I feel like this?
I don't want to commit SI's,
so I starve myself,
all guilty pleasures denied,
Yet the scale stays the same..
for all I've tried.
My size is a handicapp,
Like the lack of vision in my eyes.
But I still have:
Best friends,
Family
And Passable Wealth.
Heck, I have perfect dental health!
Yet something's still not right with me...[/i][/color]
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Post by foblin on Oct 14, 2005 14:04:29 GMT -5
That's beautiful Chloe!! And I know how you're feeling.
I feel that way =( Except when I feel really down I eat choccies...then feel more down for eating the choccies...so I eat less....vicious cycle >.<
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Post by starryeyes on Oct 14, 2005 16:30:45 GMT -5
It's really horrible i know >.<
And i recently told my best friend how i felt..
she said she would never guess it..
everyone's always like "Oh, you're so skinny!" but i don't look at it in terms of thin and fat... i look at it in terms of weight... and i know that's wrong.. but i do..
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Post by foblin on Oct 15, 2005 10:24:18 GMT -5
It is bad....the only reason i've eaten today so far is because my sister gave me something...I feel bad too because I like to give people support and now I'm giving them advice that I can't even follow =(
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Post by Graveyard Goddess on Oct 15, 2005 15:23:27 GMT -5
ooh girlees...dont fall into any traps....be safe for me
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Post by foblin on Oct 15, 2005 15:39:39 GMT -5
*hugs stephie* I'll try Stephie....You stay safe too!  |
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Post by Graveyard Goddess on Oct 15, 2005 15:47:05 GMT -5
no "ill try"ing missy....
you come talk with me ANYTIME about this chicky.
a) I know exactly where your coming from
b) I feel exactly the same way you do
c) I hate being lectured about eating problems
d) Im not ignorant or stupid about them
e) im a good listener
f) I can give you healthy methods to help yourself feel healthy
e) I have got to keep you from seeing the very bad stuff that comes from not staying safe
g) such as convincing yourself and everyone your "just fine" when really your dying or something
lol SO IM HERE FOR YOU BOTHHH
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Post by foblin on Oct 15, 2005 16:02:30 GMT -5
I know Stephie.....I know it's not right...but it feels like the right thing to do =/
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Post by Graveyard Goddess on Oct 15, 2005 16:08:29 GMT -5
i know baby and its okay for a while but you wont notice when youve crossed the line where it isnt okay anymore. please...i cant force you but i would greatly appreciate it if you talked with me about it a bit....you can be totally open with me. I know there are two sides to you...the one side which is rational and suspects the dangers and the emotional side which doesnt care about the dangers becuase of the outscome they could provide you with. is that how it is?well...anyhow....i mean i just want to keep you well love
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Post by foblin on Oct 15, 2005 17:04:59 GMT -5
I know Stephie =)
I think It's an outlet for everything else I think about...I used to get angry alot, but this is a new way because getting angry with people never made me feel better. hopefully it'll get better if I stop having things thrown and kicked at me by chavs, which i've now told my teacher about. But that's just my theory...I don't really know why i feel like this.
I've been keeping this quiet for 2-3 months so far though
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Post by starryeyes on Oct 15, 2005 19:13:02 GMT -5
I'm glad you're here for me Stephie..  :love: but I feel the same way as Eve.. It's Complicated... |
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Post by Graveyard Goddess on Oct 15, 2005 21:26:11 GMT -5
hey guys... a) ive lived two years or three longer than you, which means i have a tidbit more life experience  b) Ive had eating disorders....i know how it feels to need that outlet. I am here for you both |
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Post by foblin on Oct 16, 2005 5:36:24 GMT -5
I'm glad both of you are here for me!! I feel a bit better since talking about my feelings to people who understand =) Thankyou so much!!!! ;D :love: |
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Post by starryeyes on Oct 16, 2005 8:59:47 GMT -5
hey guys... a) ive lived two years or three longer than you, which means i have a tidbit more life experience b) Ive had eating disorders....i know how it feels to need that outlet. I am here for you both I know Stephie.. It's just.. I don't know how to even explain it to myself |
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Post by Graveyard Goddess on Oct 16, 2005 18:18:31 GMT -5
then your gona smile and nod while i talk explain the stuff you cant explain becuause...well beucase im your friend and i love you to bits |
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