I wish [triggering]

[crimsoncadavers [amanda]]

I wish I had an eating disorder

..then i could starve myself of you for days.
Reducing myself to skin and bones

.... skin and bones

watching the pit of my stomache grow into a bigger hole of nothingness

living off of the hints, begging for small scraps to keep my intestines from eating themselves into a rotting pile of shit.

I binge on your words.
Filling myself so fucking full that my insides explode and i end up having nothing on the inside to support my fragile frame.

i break in two

I tried to purge myself, tried to fix this mess.
all in all i guess i was trying to stay thin
.. trying to prove that i do not need to be dependant on something like you to keep myself alive.

.. i wanted to crumble into dust

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[Graveyard Goddess]

i love LOVE LOVE it....geez amanda you are amazing. Its so powerful....there are no words to describe the beauty in all of your writing. thank you for sharing it here and for me to read

[foblin]

That's amazing!!! I love it

Like Stephie says, one is left speechless after reading your poetry

[lostsoul]

Love your poem!! My b-friend read it too and he even said it was a good poem. Keep up the good poetry, I like to read more. You have a way with words. LOVE IT!!!

[starryeyes]

wow. As Stephie And Eve Said... Speechless.

[forgottenshadow]

I don't know what to say.. I'm speechless among the rest of them

[crimsoncadavers [amanda]]

you guys always make me feel special.. you always have amazing things to say.

i wish i deserved to hear it.
but thanks..

:love: