you were there (may be triggering in places)

[crazystrange]

this poem was written by me when i was at a point in my life where i felt like i couldn't relate to any member of my family, specifically my dad. I couldn't talk to him about anything that was worrying me because he wouldn't take the time to listen to me, i wrote him this poem and emailled it to him while he was at work.
Anyway on to the poem, sorry its a long one!

You were there
When I needed you
For help with work
Or if I was feeling blue

And you were there
When I was in the school play
I thought I had made you proud
I thought I had made your day

But five years later
Here I am
Alone in my room
Studying for an exam

You are still there
To help with my work
But with anything else
You just don’t seem to care

Gone are the days
So friendly and free
And no-one it seems
Is as lonely as me

Alone in my room
I’ll write you a song
And pray that you’ll read it
Before the day’s gone

The candle-flame flickers
And I extinguish it’s light
As gone is my place
In my family’s life

Mind numbing pain
Now enters my head
And there are now times
When I wish I was dead

You don’t understand me
And I don't think you will
Most of the time
You will just pay the bill

You don’t like my music
Or the clothes that I wear
And I don’t think you’ve noticed
What I did to my hair

You no longer see
All the things that I do
You don’t seem to realise
It’s not all for you

I hear you all laughing
And I wish I was there
I wish you could tell me
Whether you still care

You think that I hate you
But your never around
To share all my pain
And pick me up off the ground

My life is a mess
I don't know what to do
It seems no-one can help me
And least of all you…

[lostsoul]

Wow, that was a very touching poem. I hope it made your dad open his eyes and realize what he was doing. What did he think of the poem?

Parents can get like that at times. It seems like we put the bills and everything before our children without realizing it. Then we tend to blame the kids for some reason, when it is our fault. It's not that we don't want to listen, but sometimes we need an eye-opener to realize what our actions cause.

[foblin]

Amazing poem =] I know where you're coming from, my dad's the same.

[crazystrange]

thanks peeps i'm glad you both liked it.
lostsoul ~ Basically after my dad got in from work he'd printed it out and highlighted the bits that were worrying him and said that we would sit down and talk about it 'later'...so far 'later' is 3 years and counting so i've pretty much given up.
foblin ~ I'm glad that you could relate to my poem but i'm sorry that your dad act's the same as mine cos sometimes it feels like he never wanted to have me

[57chevys]

That is a beautiful poem with lots of meaning. This is why I always try to be a part of my daughters life no matter what. She comes first. Huggs and Bites

[crazystrange]

thanks bob, glad you liked it