Post by livingdeaddolls on Nov 29, 2006 12:49:25 GMT -5
Fall on to bed, with again a haunting thought...
As my eyes were red rimmed, it was morning that had brought.
Sleepless nights, forever fear...
As i wonder for my gaurdian angel...ever so near.
Same routine, and every nagging day
My supposed exciting future seems so typically far away.
The circle they calls friends has now become invisable to the eye
Because every word the say, whispers in my head as a lie.
Each snigger and snapping word they say...
Builds up like tidal wave, that i know is going to overflow some day.
Maybe im different but do you have to be so scared
Talking about your "boys"...then to me you compare...
I have a loving man i fall into his arms each day...
But because i also like girls, i may be pushing him away.
My heart is tearing and my soul is still yearning for a hand
Then again inside im still listening to every command.
Were do you go from here as i lay slumped to my pillow of tears,
Because actually being myself is my worst thought fears.
Then after school i go to my house and try to be so strong,
Always i think about my life, being who i am forever seems so long.
I never had a friend, only one who bullied me every yearning day
I never had a friend, only one who used me and then ran away.
i have friends now who say they are who i want them to be,
As i tell them my problems there screaming to get free.
Family is a word i never understood fully
Fighting and threats, shouts and roars, actions of bullys.
Whispers of words throughout my mind
Is there anyone in life, ever so kind.
I know i shouldnt complain and there are people worse off than me
But all i want in life, is to be happy that i am me, then once maybe i can be free.
LivingDeadDolls!! .... xXxXx hope you all liKe!! xxx
As my eyes were red rimmed, it was morning that had brought.
Sleepless nights, forever fear...
As i wonder for my gaurdian angel...ever so near.
Same routine, and every nagging day
My supposed exciting future seems so typically far away.
The circle they calls friends has now become invisable to the eye
Because every word the say, whispers in my head as a lie.
Each snigger and snapping word they say...
Builds up like tidal wave, that i know is going to overflow some day.
Maybe im different but do you have to be so scared
Talking about your "boys"...then to me you compare...
I have a loving man i fall into his arms each day...
But because i also like girls, i may be pushing him away.
My heart is tearing and my soul is still yearning for a hand
Then again inside im still listening to every command.
Were do you go from here as i lay slumped to my pillow of tears,
Because actually being myself is my worst thought fears.
Then after school i go to my house and try to be so strong,
Always i think about my life, being who i am forever seems so long.
I never had a friend, only one who bullied me every yearning day
I never had a friend, only one who used me and then ran away.
i have friends now who say they are who i want them to be,
As i tell them my problems there screaming to get free.
Family is a word i never understood fully
Fighting and threats, shouts and roars, actions of bullys.
Whispers of words throughout my mind
Is there anyone in life, ever so kind.
I know i shouldnt complain and there are people worse off than me
But all i want in life, is to be happy that i am me, then once maybe i can be free.
LivingDeadDolls!! .... xXxXx hope you all liKe!! xxx
