[trigger] Rant/cry

[sybil4insane]

DONT CRY!!!

they are just glasses. they are for the best trust me!
You can see way better. I have been wearing them since I was 14 and I see much better. No eye spasms or anything of that sort

Just give glasses a try.

[crimsoncadavers [amanda]]

I don't think it really matters how you dress, or if you wear glasses or not... as long as you are confident about yourself [or pretend to be.. at least on the outside] then people will accept you, and if they give you shit, then just ignore it, pretend like everything they say means nothing to you, and eventually they will stop.
Seriously.
Steph! one day we need to plan a get together, and you should let me do your hair, I cut my own hair, and dye it, and I do a few other peoples hair too..
It will be awesome

[starryeyes]

admin said:

I don’t know if this is a wasted post or not but im writing just to write as it is.
I am so upset. The biggest reason being that im getting glasses. I could get contacts but not until I can pay for them and I cant so I got glasses and im upset and I think they are okay but they make me look horrid and I almost want to laugh at myself because im acting like it’s the apocalypse and stuff but honestly I feel so upset like I can never be pretty ever because I will never be skinny again and now I am going to have glasses on my faces and I hate them and I think people look good in glasses but I look horrible because they make my nose look big and I feel miserable in them and I already hate looking at myself without them but now I cant even do..ah I don’t know what im typing this up for I feel so stupid because I know im being irrational but I really am very upset. My mom got so angry with me because I tried on the glasses and started to cry and couldn’t stop and she was embarrassed and I feel bad but I really feel like its just one little bad thing after another. It would be so funny if I killed myself over a pair of fucking glasses but honestly…the way life is going for me; I am just tumbling down the rabbit hole. I hate life. I hate myself. I hate myself for hating myself. I hate being in fear of every body and everything every day. I hate stress and the anxiety. I hate the tears and the blood and the chills and the sound coming from the air conditioner atm and I hate the scratching noise my dog is making in the other room and I hate my complexion and my height and my hair and my weight and my lack of scalability and the fact that I don’t have a backbone at all and I’m weak and I hate the way I look at myself because its like looking at another person. I hate being alone 24/7 I hate driving school its horribly scary and I hate I hate it. I hate night time because that is when I lie awake and cant sleep. If I can sleep I am having a horrible nightmare which causes me to roam in fear and depression from then on after. I hate daytime because that means I have to get out of bed and put on clothing and try to look nice for school when I never will no matter how hard I try and even if someone comments on my clothing it is a teacher who says I look nice because people my age don’t like me. Im tired of trying so hard to live. My guidance counselor and mom say that I don’t try hard enough but if this isn’t hard enough what is? I am utterly listless! I hate crying so much it hurts and it doesn’t suffice me. I hate the realization that I got a little carried away with self infliction and didn’t notice and that if my mom notices ill be put away. I hate being stuck in this world…yet so far away from a real life so far away from happiness. I hate when people say im not putting in effort because maybe its true. Maybe if I wanted to be skinny enough I would have gone running instead of pulling out another blade. Maybe if I wanted friends enough I wouldn’t be scared to ask someone to chill with me. Maybe if I’m just not sad enough to become happy.

What I Like About You, Stephie

~ I like the fact you are so nice to everyone mean people don't belong in this world.
~ I like the fact you are not afraid to say what you feel even if it is just ranting because it shows you are sensitive, you are a good person
~ I like the fact you love the night (it is the best time of um.... the day? )
~ You have great style in clothes
~ you ARE putting effort into living because you took the first step; asking for help.
~ You are amazing at art.
~ You write peoms that have gotten these reviews from my friends " wow, she's better than... better than Shakespere...." and " Your friend is officially too good at writing poetry for her own good."

Getting glasses is something you'll get used too.... it is only bad if you have horrible eyes, (like i do) my eyesight is so bad i can't see without my glasses, and i have a little indent on one of my eye that means i can never wear contact lenses. Glasses won't be so bad for you though, trust me. And Stephie, that post was just because you wer in a bad mood, all those things aren't true.

[Graveyard Goddess]

Oh dear *hugs and starts crying from the heart melty feeling* *hugs again*
thank you chloe. i got them today...they are purple and blue....ill get used to them i guess

[starryeyes]

that's awesome colours stephie! my glasses are brown but the paint wore off so they are kinda half brown half silver now. and don't worry.... you will grow to lurve them

[foblin]

Stephie!! You look so pwetty in your new glasses ^-^ You're worrying over nothing!